Pixie Dust

Happiness doesn't come easy to some.
It's not something everyone is born feeling,
It's not something everyone generally feels when nothing else is going on.
Like learning to play an instrument,
Or draw or dance or sing,
It's something that can take years of practice,
Of work and dedication.
Happiness isn't a switch in you brain that you can flick on whenever you like;
It's also not something that will stay with you forever.
You can learn it, you can forget it.
Someone can give it to you, and easily take it away.
Happiness comes in many forms:
For some it's money, or knowledge, or just being out in nature;
For me it's love.
They say you can't truly feel love if you don't love yourself;
And I look in the mirror everyday and hate everything I see,
I look out my window and hate everything I see,
I go online and unless it's a grumpy cat meme I hate everything I see.
I'm full of hate and negativity,
Therefore I can't feel love,
Therefore I can't be happy.
So for me, love is what I need to work on every day;
I need to practice it until my heart gets sore,
Until I feel like giving up and then just keep going.
By practicing love, I'm practicing happiness.
By choosing to love everyday, I'm choosing to be happy everyday.
Happiness is not a destination, I won't get there after practicing for 20 years,
It's a way of life, and everyday is a happier day by living that way of life.

It's not an easy thing to do
Because it will feel like you're not being you.
It won't always be getting better, you may take a step back for every two forward,
You might even give up completely and have to start again.
It doesn't really matter how long it takes or how many setbacks you have,
What's important is that you don't stop for long, that you keep trying
No matter what else is going on in the world.
Bad things will happen in your life, they happen to everyone;
But there's no reason to not get back up: staying down won't effect whoever put you there,
Only you.
By staying down your only hurting yourself and there's no benefit:
You won't get whoever put you there to feel guilty
And try to do everything possible to bring you back up.
You won't get a pity party from your friends, family or anyone else.
And if you did, would that really help?
Would it actually heal your wounds, or just feel like a consolation prize?
Only you can heal yourself, and there's no real reason to wait for long.