Holding Back

We were over
And I should have seen it
But I didn't want to believe it.
Why would I?
After knowing you so long, it just didn't seem real.
You changed, but you must have known that I hadn't,
That I still loved you with everything I had,
That I would have done anything for you.
And if it really needed to end, if our days were numbered,
That you could have told me sooner,
That you didn't need to force yourself into a relationship you knew you couldn't stay in.
You just kept holding back.
You pushed me away, said I could see other girls, that you wouldn't be mad;
But you were the only woman I wanted, needed, could think about.
You said you wouldn't be bothered if I left you;
But the idea of losing you was unbearable for me.
And all those times I told you
You were beautiful
You were perfect,
That I loved you more than anything, and
That you were my everything;
And you just completely ignored it.
I was so confused,
I didn't know what else I could do, I made suggestions, but you refused.
I should have known that there was nothing I could do,
That we were broken
And nothing I could do would fix us.