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My Bio

Myers Briggs Type Indicator: INTP about 1% of the population!

Enneagram type 3 (it's changed a few times somehow, it was 3 first, than 5, then 6) (and it also said I was mentally unstable...)

Color Code: Blue

Sagittarius

Year of the Dog

Hopeless Romantic

Languages: English and Spanish: fluent

French, Portuguese, Italian, and German: beginner

Very Competitive


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Concerts (of major bands) I've been to (in chronological order):

HONDA CIVIC tour [@ universal amphitheater]: mxpx, good Charlotte, new found glory

GREEN DAY (american idiot tour)[@ the home depot center]: Jimmy eat world, Green day

THE CULT (promo/reunion tour before born into this)[@ the grove of Anaheim]: the cult

DEPECHE MODE (tour of the universe) [@ Hollywood bowl]: peter, bjorn and john, depeche mode

KALIMBA [@ Fair of Duango]

DAVID GARRETT (us debut)[@ the el rey]: David Garrett

THE BANGLES (special one time deal)[@ my school!!!]: misc. local indie bands, the bangles

DAVID GARRETT (us debut...again)[@ the grove of Anaheim]: David Garrett

30 SECONDS TO MARS (into the wild)[@ the Greek]: street drum corps, neon trees, shiny toy guns, 30stm

MUSE(the resistance tour)[@ staples center]: passion pit, muse

DAVID GARRETT (rock symphonies tour)[@ the Wilshire ebell]: David Garrett

30 SECONDS TO MARS (closer to the edge)[@ Gibson amphitheater]: Frontline brigade, 30stm

PRINCE (welcome 2 america [?] tour)[@ the forum]: chaka khan, sheila e, prince (with opening acts again and other misc. artists)

ECHO AND THE BUNNYMEN[@ club Nokia]: misc. indie bands, echo and the bunnymen

DURAN DURAN (all you need is now)[@ Nokia theater]: neon trees, Duran Duran

THE CURE (reflections)[@ Pantages theater]: the cure

DAVID GARRETT(rock symphonies II)[@ club nokia]: David Garrett

SHINY TOY GUNS (promo)[@ Santa Anita race track]: Omar khan and other misc. KROQ DJs, Shiny Toy Guns

REVENTON2012[@ staples center]: Julietta Venegas, Kinky, Mikel Erentxun, Beto Cuevas, Moderatto, Cafe Tacuba, Hombres G, Los Enanitos Verdes

LINDSEY STIRLING (lindsey stirling)[@ the Roxy]: George Sarah and string ensemble, Von Grey, The Vibrant Sound, Lindsey Stirling

MUSE (The 2nd Law)[@ staples center]: band of skulls, Muse

SOUND CITY PLAYERS[Jimmy Kimmel Live]: Dave Grohl, Taylor Hawkins, Cheap Trick, John Fogerty, Bruce Springsteen, Lee Ving

LINDSEY STIRLING(Lindsey Stirling)[@ The Fonda]: The Vibrant Sound, Lindsey Stirling

30 SECONDS TO MARS(Love, Lust, Faith+Dreams)[@ first Unitarian universalist church of Los Angeles]: 30stm

PLACIDO DOMINGO(Zarzuela and Latin American music)[@ the Dorthy Cahndler] Placido Domingo with a bunch of opera singers I don't feel like looking up (but they were amazing don't get me wrong) and Pepe Aguilar

REVENTON 2013 [@ STAPLES CENTER] Los Amantes de Lola, Jorge Gonzalez, Miguel Mateos, Zoé, Nek, Los Angeles Azules, Molotov, Hombres G, El Tri

THE CULT(Electrc '13)[@ The Wiltern]: The Cult

DEPECHE MODE(Delta Machine)[@ Sleep Train Amphitheatre]: Crystal Castles, Depeche Mode

PAUL MCCARTNEY(New)[Hollywood Blvd for Jimmy Kimmel Live]: Paul McCartney

DEPECHE MODE(Delta Machine)[@ Staples Center]: Crystal Castles, Depeche Mode

THIRTY SECONDS TO MARS(Love Lust Faith+Dreams)[@ The Hollywood Bowl]: New Politics, Panic! at the Disco, 30stm

MOTLEY CRUE(Farewell tour)[@ Hollywood Bowl]: Alic Cooper, Motley Crue

PAUL MCCARTNEY (New)[@ Dodger Stadium]: Paul McCartney

SOUNDGARDEN and NINE INCH NAILS (King Animal and Hesitation Marks)[@ Verizon Ampitheather]: SoundGarden, Nine Inch Nails

U2 (Innocence and Experience tour)[@ the Forum]: U2

DEAD SARA (Pleasure to Meet You)[@ the Glass House]: Dekades, Lost in Society, Dead Sara

LINDSEY STIRLING (Shatter Me)[@ the Greek]: Olivia Somerlyn, Lights, Lindsey Stirling

DURAN DURAN (Paper Gods)[@ the Hollywood Bowl]:Clean Bandit, Chic with Nile Rodgers, Duran Duran

DEAD SARA (Pleasure to Meet You)[@ Bloomingdale's]: Dead Sara

THE CULT [@ the Palladium]: Primal Scream, The Cult

THE CURE [@ the Hollywood Bowl]: The Twilight Sad, The Cure

BLONDIE [@ LA county Fair]: Blondie

NENA [@ the Regent]: Rebel and a Basketcase, ADAMEVA, Nena

KROQ'S ALMOST ACOUSTIC CHRISTMAS [@ the Forum]: The Head and the Heart, Bishop Briggs, Phantogram, Andrew McMahon and the Wilderness, Bastille, Weezer, Beck, Green Day

METALLICA (World Wired Tour)[@ the Rose Bowl]: Gojira, Avenged sevenfold, Metallica

GREEN DAY (Revolution Radio)[@ Rose Bowl]: Green Day

DEPECHE MODE (Global Spirit)[@ hollywood bowl]: Warpaint, Depeche Mode

DEPECHE MODE (Global Spirit)[@ hollywood bowl]: Warpaint, Depeche Mode

DEPECHE MODE (Global Spirit)[@ hollywood bowl]: Warpaint, Depeche Mode (yes I saw them 3 times within one week)

I HEART RADIO MUSIC FEST [@ T-Mobile Arena]: Kesha, Thomas Rhett, Nial Horan, Miley Cyrus, Big Sean, Kings of Leon, Lorde, DJ Khaled with a bunch of ppl i don't know and Demi Lovatto

ALMOST ACOUSTIC CHRISTMAS[@ the Forum]: Royal Blood, Judah and the Lion, Cold War Kids, Run The Jewels, Prophets of Rage, Rise Against, Queens of the Stone Age, 30 Seconds to Mars, Muse

LINDSEY STIRLING (Warmer in the Winter)[@ Microsoft Theater]: Lindsey Stirling

DEPECHE MODE (Global Spirit)[@ Honda Center]: Depeche Mode

80s WEEKEND #6 [@ Microsoft Theater]: Thomas Dolby, Soft Cell, Berlin, Adam Ant, Blondie

LAURA PAUSINI (Hazte Senitr)[@ Greek Theater]: Laura Pausini

LINDSEY STIRLING & EVANESCENCE [@ five point amphitheater]: Lindsey Stirling, Evanescence

CAIFANES [@ five point amphitheater]: Caifanes

TOM MORRELO [@ Los Angeles city hall]: Tom Morrelo with UCLA marching band, the singer form Jane's Addiction and other random ppl

COREY TAYLOR AND FRIENDS [@ The Roxy]: Corey Taylor w/ a bunch of ppl I don't know from bands I've never heard of

MUSE (Simulation Theory) [@ the Forum]: Walk the Moon, Muse



OTHER BIG MUSICAL STUFFS I'VE BEEN TO (school musicals not counted):

THE SUMMIT (this is war album)[@ the avalon (formerly the palace)]: recorded background vocals and drums for the album

THIS IS WAR ALBUM PREVIEW+first view of "the ride" (kings and queens music video)+Q&A [@ the monteblanc]

30STM ACOUSTIC PERFORMANCE+ALBUM SIGNING[@ the hive]

SIMONE BOCANEGRA (opera)[@ the Dorthy Chandler]

AMERICAN IDIOT MUSICAL [@ Ahmanson theater]

BILLY ELLIOTT [@ the pantages]

FILMING OF CALIFORNICATION SEASON FINALE [@ the greek] Misc opening band made up of crew members doing a soundcheck, Tim Minchin, Steve Jones of the Sex Pistols Atticus Fetch (the character Tim Minchin plays) Marilyn Manson!!! Atticus Fetch again (it's called the two headed monster tour on the show, Fetch and Manson) and comedian Shane Mauss came on every once in a while too

THE ADDAMS FAMILY [@ Segerstrom Center for the Arts]

METALLICA: THROUGH THE NEVER [@ TLC Chinese Theater]

CARMEN [@ the Dorothy Chandler]

LA TRAVIATA [@ the Dorothy Chandler]

THE BARBER OF SEVILLE [@ the Dorothy Chandler]

GIANNI SCHICCHI/PAGLIACI [@ the Dorothy Chandler]

MACBETH [@ the Dorothy Chandler]

THE NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS [@ the hollywood bowl]

LA BOHEME [@ the Dorothy Chandler]

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Favourite Movies
Everything MCU, Zootopia
Favourite TV Shows
Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Sabrina, Jessica Jones, El Ministerio del Tiempo, Lucifer, Charmed, El Gran Hotel
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
metallica, duran duran, depeche mode, the cure, dead sara, versaemerge, caifanes, muse, nena, soda stereo, bomba estereo
Favourite Books
the chronicles of narnia, harry potter, the girl with all the gifts, downsiders, the shadow club series, the historian, the star shards series, don quixote
Favourite Writers
lots: most english Romanticism poets, pretty much everyone from Spanish literature class, Neal Shusterman, C.S. Lewis
Favourite Games
legend of zelda: twilight princess
Favourite Gaming Platform
xbox 360, gold triforce DS, ps1, ps 2, gamecube, gameboy advace sp...ok those are all my gaming platforms lol
Other Interests
cars, witchcraft and other paranormal stuff, public health, politics
This took several days to write, hence the title The first time I wanted to kill myself was Feb 19, 2009. I remember standing on the 3rd floor outdoor patio of a hospital, wondering where the best place to jump would be. I realized that the only place I could land was the outdoor patio on the second floor, and that aside from it not being a huge distance, the trees and umbrellas would likely break my fall, and being that I was already at a hospital, well my chances of dying were pretty slim; so I didn't do it. It would be over a year before I started seriously considering it again. In that time, I enjoyed being one of the most popular kids in my 8th grade class for the remainder of the school year, then it all started going downhill. I went to Mexico that summer, where I snuck drinks of as much tequila and mezcal as I could because it was the only distraction I could find to keep me together. When I came back I started high school and didn't know anyone. Not knowing people was never a
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So lately...past few months I guess, I've been dong stuff I haven't done in a while. Yes, dA is one of those things, I mean it's been almost a year since my last journal...but also listening to emo bands I haven't heard in like 4 years, thinking about writing again, rereading old poems and messages to ppl I don't talk to anymore, playing music, and buying old video games on amazon that I wanted to play when I was little but didn't...it all sounds very nostalgic but it isn't. I've felt nostalgic before, it doesn't last months and it tends to bring joy when I do something I used to do...but this doesn't. It feels like I'm doing these things bec
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Feeling suicidal. Any suggestions on how to kill myself?
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