MurderedI felt my body ripping itself apart,
I felt your hand on my beating heart,
I felt my flesh slowly tearing away,
I felt empty when you left me to decay.
I feel hollow now, empty like a tree.
I feel grateful that you gutted me,
I feel no pain, no anxiety, no remorse,
I feel nothing, you murdered every source.
This content is intended for mature audiences.
or, enter your birth date.*
I'm just one of those peopleI guess I'm just one of those people,I'm just one of those people by theShadowGrove
The kind that trusts people
That loves people
That is able to eventually let down his guard.
I guess I couldn't have known better,
And now I'm left with this endless pit of black ink
That I can throw on the page and
Let the letters fall where they may,
It's always the same thing:
The same pain and suffering
Just in various tempos.
You, my everything,
Left me with nothing.
Hopeless DevotionI'm hopelessly devoted to youHopeless Devotion by theShadowGrove
I can't stop thinking about you
And I know that I'd still do anything for you.
Only you could have broken me like this,
Because you're the only one I ever loved this much.
|The latest and...greatest?|
To Wish Impossible ThingsIt's hard
To wish impossible things;
Just there for the taking,
You can't have it,
Knowing you can't
Simply reach out and touch it;
The regret and self-hate
If something goes horribly wrong.
To be in love,
To travel the world,
To live in total euphoria,
In complete peace.
To paint the world black,
Things hoped for, but
Nevermore, we said.
Nevermore will we be let down,
Nevermore will we let our aspirations be tainted,
Changed by the world.
We were supposed to stand tall,
Go against the world
And forge a new path,
Our new path.
Now here we are,
Wishing petty dreams,
Wishing we could be like everyone else
And make them all happy.
To wish impossible things,
When all we wish to be
And all we wish is gone away.
It's not my fault you've met your end
It's not my fault you can't pretend
This dead-end world
can offer you anything
There is no end, only
This is not the end
Crystallized knowledge of thousands
Think as one
Act as one
Striving to be different
Yet evermore the same
Riding the same train
Until the track ends
Analyzed in 5 steps
A new way
a different way
It's all the same way
The same lie
Know not what you do
Only what you are told to
And you know not from who
Only that it had to be done
Break the system
It's all part of the plan
Nothing is unexpected
Nothing is changed
Paperthin HymnI wish I could play you a song:
Full of passion,
Like the relationship we once had.
I wish I knew what I was doing wrong,
Or perhaps what I was doing right
But wasn't doing enough of;
I would have changed,
And maybe then we might have had a chance.
I wish I could play you a song
That was versatile like we were:
Fast and danceable,
A beat that could make the world move;
Yet smooth and calming,
Resonating with the soothing tune
That relaxed my soul when I was with you.
I wish I could play you a song
That sang our mutual feelings,
But it was never the same for you,
I could never give you enough.
Never really shared anything with you.
You're love as thin as paper
Shouldn't have affected me the way it did,
But it did.
I wish I could play you a song,
With all that and more,
But maybe a song about you,
A song that truly delineates who you are
Would be more appropriate.
I wish I could play you a song,
But all I have is this
I don't know if you've noticedI ask you what's wrong,
You say nothing.
I don't believe you,
You say something
But you wouldn't want to bore me.
You wouldn't bore me.
Nothing you say can.
I don't know if you've noticed;
If something's bothering you,
It's bothering me.
I don't know if you've noticed but I care about you.
I'm here for you.
Whenever you want,
I'll always be there.
And I'm not just saying that,
It's the truth.
I don't know if you've noticed,
But I've never let you down
And I never will.
I care about you,
And that will never change;
Please don't forget that.
Whatever you're going through,
However you feel:
Just tell me,
Let me in
And I promise you I will do everything I can to make you feel better,
To make it right,
Because as long as we're together,
As long as we have each other,
Nothing's impossible, nothing can bring us down.
I don't know if you've noticed, but
I love you.
Am I Evil?Nightfall.
Into the shadows
Where I feel safe
From the warriors of the light.
They're more like lawyers,
Arguing for something that they were told to defend
Not truly knowing or believing they're own words.
Their mere presence hurts me
Therefore, I hide.
Into the shadows.
Logically, I am better off here
But I am still scared.
Scared of the demons lurking in the corners.
I see them,
Sealing my doom with each step they take.
I am still safer here.
In the darkest of the shadows,
The purest black against all the shades of grey,
As the demons begin to identify my inner most thoughts,
I embrace who I am,
What I am;
And I let myself loose.
Then I awake,
Drunk and high from the carnal pleasure I have just experienced.
Everything seems lighter, brighter.
The Shadows have gotten used to me,
Perhaps I have to them.
The demons now hide in the same dark corners in which they felt so strong.
My sense of fear
Has been replaced with one of empowerment.
i want to see green
till i grow wings
like the fairy kings
dance till my heels break and my stockings
rip and my eyes smudge
learning dirty words
till the clocks stop
...and the night’s ours
and it rained black diamonds from your mouth
and it rained black diamonds from your mouth
Get a FREE visitor map for your site!
Myers Briggs Type Indicator: INTP about 1% of the population!
Enneagram type 3 (it's changed a few times somehow, it was 3 first, than 5, then 6) (and it also said I was mentally unstable...)
Color Code: Blue
Year of the Dog
Not gay, contrary to popular belief! (although occasionally bi if you play your cards right long story)
Languages: English and Spanish: fluent
French, Portuguese, Italian, and German: beginner
I have plans for world domination
I'll use words to get out of a fight, but can kick ass if I have too (and that fact makes me so happy!)
Concerts (of major bands) I've been to (in chronological order):
HONDA CIVIC tour [@ universal amphitheater]: mxpx, good Charlotte, new found glory
GREEN DAY (american idiot tour)[@ the home depot center]: Jimmy eat world, Green day
THE CULT (promo/reunion tour before born into this)[@ the grove of Anaheim]: the cult
DEPECHE MODE (tour of the universe) [@ Hollywood bowl]: peter, bjorn and john, depeche mode
KALIMBA [@ Fair of Duango]
DAVID GARRETT (us debut)[@ the el rey]: David Garrett
THE BANGLES (special one time deal)[@ my school!!!]: misc. local indie bands, the bangles
DAVID GARRETT (us debut...again)[@ the grove of Anaheim]: David Garrett
30 SECONDS TO MARS (into the wild)[@ the Greek]: street drum corps, neon trees, shiny toy guns, 30stm
MUSE(the resistance tour)[@ staples center]: passion pit, muse
DAVID GARRETT (rock symphonies tour)[@ the Wilshire ebell]: David Garrett
30 SECONDS TO MARS (closer to the edge)[@ Gibson amphitheater]: Frontline brigade, 30stm
PRINCE (welcome 2 america [?] tour)[@ the forum]: chaka khan, sheila e, prince (with opening acts again and other misc. artists)
ECHO AND THE BUNNYMEN[@ club Nokia]: misc. indie bands, echo and the bunnymen
DURAN DURAN (all you need is now)[@ Nokia theater]: neon trees, Duran Duran
THE CURE (reflections)[@ Pantages theater]: the cure
DAVID GARRETT(rock symphonies II)[@ club nokia]: David Garrett
SHINY TOY GUNS (promo)[@ Santa Anita race track]: Omar khan and other misc. KROQ DJs, Shiny Toy Guns
REVENTON2012[@ staples center]: Julietta Venegas, Kinky, Mikel Erentxun, Beto Cuevas, Moderatto, Cafe Tacuba, Hombres G, Los Enanitos Verdes
LINDSEY STIRLING (lindsey stirling)[@ the Roxy]: George Sarah and string ensemble, Von Grey, The Vibrant Sound, Lindsey Stirling
MUSE (The 2nd Law)[@ staples center]: band of skulls, Muse
SOUND CITY PLAYERS[Jimmy Kimmel Live]: Dave Grohl, Taylor Hawkins, Cheap Trick, John Fogerty, Bruce Springsteen, Lee Ving
LINDSEY STIRLING(Lindsey Stirling)[@ The Fonda]: The Vibrant Sound, Lindsey Stirling
30 SECONDS TO MARS(Love, Lust, Faith+Dreams)[@ first Unitarian universalist church of Los Angeles]: 30stm
PLACIDO DOMINGO(Zarzuela and Latin American music)[@ the Dorthy Cahndler] Placido Domingo with a bunch of opera singers I don't feel like looking up (but they were amazing don't get me wrong) and Pepe Aguilar
REVENTON 2013 [@ STAPLES CENTER] Los Amantes de Lola, Jorge Gonzalez, Miguel Mateos, Zoé, Nek, Los Angeles Azules, Molotov, Hombres G, El Tri
THE CULT(Electrc '13)[@ The Wiltern]: The Cult
DEPECHE MODE(Delta Machine)[@ Sleep Train Amphitheatre]: Crystal Castles, Depeche Mode
PAUL MCCARTNEY(New)[Hollywood Blvd for Jimmy Kimmel Live]: Paul McCartney
DEPECHE MODE(Delta Machine)[@ Staples Center]: Crystal Castles, Depeche Mode
THIRTY SECONDS TO MARS(Love Lust Faith+Dreams)[@ The Hollywood Bowl]: New Politics, Panic! at the Disco, 30stm
MOTLEY CRUE(Farewell tour)[@ Hollywood Bowl]: Alic Cooper, Motley Crue
PAUL MCCARTNEY (New)[@ Dodger Stadium]: Paul McCartney
SOUNDGARDEN and NINE INCH NAILS (King Animal and Hesitation Marks)[@ Verizon Ampitheather]: SoundGarden, Nine Inch Nails
U2 (Innocence and Experience tour)[@ the Forum]: U2
DEAD SARA (Pleasure to Meet You)[@ the Glass House]: Dekades, Lost in Society, Dead Sara
LINDSEY STIRLING (Shatter Me)[@ the Greek]: Olivia Somerlyn, Lights, Lindsey Stirling
DURAN DURAN (Paper Gods)[@ the Hollywood Bowl]:Clean Bandit, Chic with Nile Rodgers, Duran Duran
DEAD SARA (Pleasure to Meet You)[@ Bloomingdale's]: Dead Sara
THE CULT [@ the Palladium]: Primal Scream, The Cult
THE CURE [@ the Hollywood Bowl]: The Twilight Sad, The Cure
BLONDIE [@ LA county Fair]: Blondie
NENA [@ the Regent]: Rebel and a Basketcase, ADAMEVA, Nena
KROQ'S ALMOST ACOUSTIC CHRISTMAS [@ the Forum]: The Head and the Heart, Bishop Briggs, Phantogram, Andrew McMahon and the Wilderness, Bastille, Weezer, Beck, Green Day
OTHER BIG MUSICAL STUFFS I'VE BEEN TO (school musicals not counted):
THE SUMMIT (this is war album)[@ the avalon (formerly the palace)]: recorded background vocals and drums for the album
THIS IS WAR ALBUM PREVIEW+first view of "the ride" (kings and queens music video)+Q&A [@ the monteblanc]
30STM ACOUSTIC PERFORMANCE+ALBUM SIGNING[@ the hive]
SIMONE BOCANEGRA (opera)[@ the Dorthy Chandler]
AMERICAN IDIOT MUSICAL [@ Ahmanson theater]
BILLY ELLIOTT [@ the pantages]
FILMING OF CALIFORNICATION SEASON FINALE [@ the greek] Misc opening band made up of crew members doing a soundcheck, Tim Minchin, Steve Jones of the Sex Pistols Atticus Fetch (the character Tim Minchin plays) Marilyn Manson!!! Atticus Fetch again (it's called the two headed monster tour on the show, Fetch and Manson) and comedian Shane Mauss came on every once in a while too
THE ADDAMS FAMILY [@ Segerstrom Center for the Arts]
METALLICA: THROUGH THE NEVER [@ TLC Chinese Theater]
CARMEN [@ the Dorothy Chandler]
LA TRAVIATA [@ the Dorothy Chandler]
THE BARBER OF SEVILLE [@ the Dorothy Chandler]
GIANNI SCHICCHI/PAGLIACI [@ the Dorothy Chandler]
MACBETH [@ the Dorothy Chandler]
THE NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS [@ the hollywood bowl]